Jennifer Tonge

Hair still Titian, but Botticelli's grip has loosened— not now Rubenesque, and probably never; Ingres approaches, but Courbet might capture me. Could I be surreal? It seems almost likely— bells in my ears and fortresses under; cones have been set on my eyes. My spring is gone and summer's upon me, rude in its ripening. I'm espaliered, strung wide and tied, pinioned, and thus can I fly.

Come here’s a peach he said and held it out just far enough to reach beyond his lap and off- ered me a room the one room left he said in all of Thessaloniki that night packed with traders The peach was lush I hadn’t slept for days it was like velvet lips a lamp he smiled patted the bed for me I knew it was in fact the only room the only bed The peach trembled and he said Come nodding to make me agree I wanted the peach and the bed he said to take it see how nice it was and I thought how I could take it ginger- ly my finger- tips only touch- ing only it Not in or out I stayed in the doorway watching a fly He stroked the peach and asked where I was from I said the States he smiled and asked how long I’d stay The fly had found the peach I said I’d leave for Turkey in the morning I wanted so much to sleep and on a bed I thought of all the ways to say that word and that they must have gradient meanings He asked me did I want the peach and I said sure and took it from his hand He asked then if I’d take the room It costs too much I said and turned to go He said to stay a while and we could talk The sun was going down I said no thanks I’d head out on the late train but could I still have the peach and what else could he say to that but yes

Open the window and you want to fly out, though you never actually do— I think I see you, still there on the ledge, where I've left you. How pulled-awake and flung can one life be? Again I thought, It will end. Again I promised and clung. I learned there that to cling was in my nature. I think I see you, though you flash quickly through the shutter. I think I hear you, though I sleep. Remember this as a bolero, a finite flaring— both the tulip tree burning in full bloom and the weeping silver birch.