Am I Special

I can play songs in my head Yes I can perfectly replicate (the) full-on orchestral every note (when the lights / do down / in the city) yet I cannot compose, for example and though when I was young I believed that the fullness meant I could recreate the sounds I heard in my head with my mouth I learned through painful iteration painfully unsatisfactory shameful the rendition so partial almost unrelated the qualities are: note tone scale register vocality musicality incapacity painfully shy of representation is there anyone? who is a record player