To D, Dead by Her Own Hand

My dear, I wonder if before the end You ever thought about a children’s game— I’m sure you must have played it too—in which You ran along a narrow garden wall Pretending it to be a mountain ledge So steep a snowy darkness fell away On either side to deeps invisible; And when you felt your balance being lost You jumped because you feared to fall, and thought For only an instant: That was when I died. That was a life ago. And now you’ve gone, Who would no longer play the grown-ups’ game Where, balanced on the ledge above the dark, You go on running and you don’t look down, Nor ever jump because you fear to fall.