palindrome

after Lisel Mueller on her profile i see she has 2 kids, now 1 she had in high school, now none at all. she unaborts 1. she is unpregnant in 8th grade. she unresembles her favorite pop singer Pink. she uncuts her hair, it pulls into her scalp from clumps on the floor. her new boyfriend forgets the weight of her. she leaves her new boyfriend. he's forgetting her phone number. she becomes my girlfriend she picks up the phone & i am on the line ungiving a goodbye. her best friend trades letters between us. we each open lettters from ourselves with hearts on the outside. she transfers to our magnet school. she moves to a neighborhood close by. we separate at the lips. we have never kissed behind the school. she unchecks the yes box on the note & i take away my middle school love letter. i unmeet her cop father & her Chicano moms. we walk backwards into Baskin-Robbins throwing up gold medal ribbon ice cream into cups. it rounds into scoops, flattens into gallon drums of sugar & cream & coldness. we are six years old. maybe we can go back to then. i unlearn her name, the way it is spelled the same backward. how it flips on a page, or in my mouth. i never knew words could do that until 5 minutes from now.