I Don't See

I expected something up out of the water not the shadow in the wave that rose to fill the wave then splash a breath off the abutting air      then disappear. I didn't see any of this         only the dark wave.         Even the size of a whale I don't see        what I look directly at. I didn't see the pronghorn antelope, speed they pointed out equal our car's, but never having seen distance so large I couldn't pin in it      point to antler and saw in parallax instead       the world entire a still brown arc of leap      so like a first look at the milky way       each stone a star I saw but could not see. I didn't see the Nazca earth drawings looking at a line like a path      the vision on it   my not looking up. & trying to see from on the ground looking from a plane thousands of feet above maybe I saw only what the unenlightened marking out the lines could see from there because I never saw the figures until shown from books. I've told folk half the truth      that I was there I was but embarrassed      never told      I missed my chance until I saw:       without embarrassment this country miss its chance   looking at color and not see what it looked directly at, without embarrassment act      and not see that done on its own hands      not see its own bright blood.